I feel like I have failed myself but I don’t feel like a failure. This past month has been absolutely amazing between the time I spent alone in reflection and time I have spent with my family. I have set goals I have failed to meet and have dropped the ball on promises I have made to myself publicly. I have not posted as much as I thought I would on social media and I have definitely not posted much on this blog this past month. I don’t have regrets. In reflection I had a great month. I made memories. I just did not share or record everything. It was as simple as that.
With summer winding down my priorities are changing. I feel better when I am living within structure. I need to structure nutrition and exercise, the quest for employment/income, and general personal and household projects. I need to set priorities for myself otherwise I will fall into the comfort/habit of unstructured existence. For someone like me it is a dangerous place to get stuck in.
It’s August 1. I strapped on my Fitbit for the first time in months. I don’t know what that means but it allows me to collect data. I don’t know what I will do with that data yet but I know it will help for undetermined future plans.
I’m making a commitment to myself to get back on track again. I have failed multiple times in the past few months but I refuse to give up. It is only when you stop trying that you can’t get back up.