My wife and daughter return from vacation tomorrow night meaning my vacation of welcomed solitude comes to an end. I have missed them but I needed this time to figure things out. As the weekend was coming to an end, I was a bit worried to be honest. I didn’t feel as if there was enough self-discovery. I can’t say I knew what I was looking for, but I did know whatever it was, was still missing.
Even this morning I was worried to an extent. I went through the motions of enjoying a cup of coffee then driving up to our community garden plot. I took some photographs to send to my wife and went on with my day.
The majority of my day was spent de-cluttering my personal effects and doing what I can best describe as “notebooking.” It is a physical version of Pinterest and list making. It works for me in that it allows me to be creative while keeping my head on straight. Sometimes I wish it could be organized like a bullet journal but it is not necessarily the purpose. I guess it is somewhat therapeutic, much like this blog.
In that process I finally came into the head space I want to be in moving forward. I still can’t say I know where I am going but I have a better feeling how to get there. The best way to explain it is this:
I want to go from point “A” to point “?” and I will get there by “?.” Well, I still want to go from point “A” to point “?” but I know I will get there by train rather than on foot, by bicycle, or by car. Now, and the hard part is, I need to get on the train and see where it takes me. I’m finally going somewhere, and how I am going to get there, but I just don’t know where yet.
I really hope that makes sense. If it doesn’t, oh well, it does to me!