Boys II Men were on to something when they covered “It’s So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday” in 1991. These days I am finding it hard to let go of the past and move on because there are a few “good times” scattered into the predominant negativity that fuels my depressive episodes.
I feel if I completely let go and move on from situations I know are holding me back that I am also letting go of the people or memories that made me smile. I know it seems silly, in my own rational mind I can admit it does, my ego will do anything it can to hold on.
I feel by letting go I am metaphorically killing those few people I retain positive emotions for even though none of them play an active role in my “current” life. I’m certain I am a “someone I used to know” person. I’m okay with that, honestly, if that is indeed true.
Ironically my life is better because of situations I can’t let go of. Not because I struggle with forgiveness but rather the result.
Do I need to simply eliminate all reminders to move on, including people? I honestly don’t know.