Who would have thought the end of this latest episode would be facilitated by the idea of planting a salad greens and herb garden on the side of the garage?
I’m not out of it yet as the switch does not happen with the snap of my fingers, but I am slowly climbing out of the darkness and embracing the moment.
The idea pulled me out and gave me a point of focus. It was a project to be excited about, not a chore needing to be done. Maybe that is the difference. Maybe a trigger is when I don’t feel like I have a sense of purpose. I always thought it was when my wife said something dumb, but don’t tell her that.
I’ve noticed I have minor episodes about once every two weeks. They last a couple of days and fade away. It’s something to bring up with my counselor and definitely something to bring up with my head doctor. I see my counselor next week and the doctor next month. Could I be on to something? Nah, I’m just becoming aware of my “head” cycles.
Enough about that, I have a new project to plan!