I’m drained—physically, mentally, emotionally.
I feel as if all energy within me has been sucked out. My body aches, I’m physically exhausted, and I don’t want to think anymore. I’m forcing myself hours past my usual posting time to get something on paper.
I have the ability to function if I focus myself. Helping to get my daughter ready for school without her knowledge that Daddy is having a “bad” day was possible this morning. I then took a shower and a two-hour nap.
I beat myself up over the fact everyone around me appears to be working so hard and I can barely keep up with the housework. I haven’t gone to the gym since Friday. I was doing so good for all of May. I’ve let myself down.
Why can’t I be “normal?”
I wonder what that feels like?
I wonder if those I believe are normal are just inauthentic representations they portray because it is socially acceptable?
I wonder if my mind will ever just shut the f*ck up?