Hi! I’m Paul and welcome to my world!
I had one of my most profound meditation sessions on Sunday afternoon. It was a guided meditation on intention. What was different this time versus other sessions is that I went deeper into meditation than I traditionally do. I felt a true disconnect from my body and experienced a feeling of pure bliss in spirit. The feeling was beyond words. It served as a reminder to me that everything my ego is still dwelling upon or worrying about is going to be okay.
It was in the midst of that state in which I gave myself over to Spirit (you can call it God, Creator, the Universe) and asked for help and guidance. I asked for synchronicity to guide me in the right direction. I can’t do it alone.
There are times I wonder if I am doing the right thing by putting myself out there so publicly. Then I get private messages from friends and from others who have played important roles in my past and understand that I am not alone in how I feel, my struggles, and my fears.
It is a flaw of society that we are to present an inauthentic portrayal of something we are not in order to please someone else. I’m not supposed to have struggles if I want another to pay me $15 an hour to enter data, sell software, or provide “outstanding customer service.”
“Leave your issues at the door. Your life for the next eight hours belongs to me. How else are you going to be able to pay for the privilege of living?”
There is another way. I’m going to find it!