Cleaning Out the Closet


Hi! I’m Paul and welcome to my world!

I often need to remind myself I am not on a timeline when it comes to living my life. This morning was an example of how I let my anxiety get the best of me. Luckily as the day went on I was able to allow my state of mind to change before depression kicked in.

I am learning that mental clutter is a trigger for me. Thoughts and ideas bombard my mind at a furious pace. It is overwhelming most of the time because I still have yet to figure out strategies for dealing with it. My counselor had been of little help in that aspect, although I can’t be sure I have brought it up to him yet.

I keep a black Moleskine notebook that I use to help keep my mind in order. It is starting to get just as cluttered. Flipping through the pages I love seeing what I have written, the images I have printed and taped, and my overall creativity in discovering my truths and beliefs. The downside is those pages contain everything from philosophical ideas to the air date of the Sense8 finale on Netflix.

Writing helps but I know it is not enough. I wonder how “normal” people deal with these same issues? I wonder if anyone can even relate?


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