Hi! I’m Paul and welcome to my world!
This is where it starts to get a bit tricky. I have decided to start writing a very personal blog but I don’t have that “niche” the “experts” on YouTube say you must have in order to be successful, prosperous, and raise magical unicorns in your backyard. It appears I am screwed right out of the gate.
For the longest time I had no idea who I even was let alone have the luxury of having a niche to call my very own. I defined my life by what I did, how hard I worked, and what others thought of me. I identified my self-worth based upon my job title and how much my paycheck was—and this was coming from someone who worked in the service industry, not a suit-clad office worker. I was frustrated and angry nine days out of ten, hated my life, and prayed nearly every night that I would not wake up in the morning. I had hit rock bottom. Then I was told my services were no longer needed at my job. The floor dropped out of my previous rock bottom.
I quickly found another job doing something I thought would be a dream come true. The reality was not what I believed and got out shortly after, leading the rest of the world to believe I was going through the daily grind like the rest of the world. I was days away from a complete admit-him-to-the-hospital nervous breakdown had I not stepped away. I was still reeling from the pain of being let go from my prior job even though I was unhappy there. Add the stress of the holiday season quickly approaching and I was a complete mess inside and out.
My family and what few friends I had left were scared and concerned. Something needed to be done, and fast.